Kubbra Sait reveals she had an abortion after a one night stand, says, ‘I felt like a terrible human being’ – Times of India

Kubbra shared about her trip to Andamans where she ended up having a one night stand with a close friend that resulted in an unwanted pregnancy, in a chapter titled ‘I Wasn’t Ready to Be a Mother’. She has further revealed in the chapter that she decided to terminate the pregnancy as she wasn’t ready to be a mother then.

“A week (after the pregnancy test results came in), I decided to terminate the pregnancy. I wasn’t ready for it. It just wasn’t the way I had imagined my life or my journey,” she wrote in the chapter. Speaking to Times Now, Kubbra said that she does not regret her choice. “I think I was not ready for it. I was not ready because I was not ready for it as a human being. I don’t think I am still ready. I don’t understand this pressure around women to get married at 23 and have children by the time they are 30,” she said.

Kubbra further added that she felt like a terrible human being because of that choice she had made. “But my feeling bad did not come from how I felt but rather how other people would perceive it. My choice was about me. Sometimes helping yourself can be hard. But it is ok. You have to do it,” she said.

Speaking to BT about writing this book being a cathartic experience, Kubbra had said, “I used to have a fake laugh to be seen and heard. I would be the last one to laugh in a room so that people would notice me and someone pointed that out to me. We don’t realise how much our past memories affect us. I didn’t want these stories to buried inside. I went through highs and lows and wrote it in a non linear way so that anyone can read it from anywhere. I used to be a good essay writer. I used to win a lot of writing competitions and never took it seriously. Writing a memoir has so much fear and stigma attached to it but I didn’t have that. I have nothing to be ashamed of. We don’t have a manual on figuring out yourself. This book was my way of making peace with my past.”